Gotta admit

That was rough last night
especially in the 4th when my buzz wore off...I could tell it wore off because I could feel the tears starting to well up
Did my best to put on a brave face...only thing that helped me keep it together was the fact that most of the girls acted normal towards me
only one who didn't, who didn't seem to be able to look at me really, was the girl who was forced by the director to unfriend me pretty recently. When it happened, I knew it wasn't her choice...the last few years, I was the only one still involved with the squad regularly talking to her.
I think the girls this situation is toughest on is her and L.C...her for obvious reasons...I was rooting her on to try to return....and L.C. is probably the 2010 rookie I was closest to after Meghan...I remember the workshop when free Lasik was mentioned and we gave each other a look because she had gotten it recently.

Today..

was supposed to be the highlight of my summer :( Look forward to the Jills Golf Tourney as soon as I get the date...always lots of fun..but can't go and can't get an actual honest reason