just wish I could understand

in regards to Meghan,

• why did she act so screwy in front of her mom?
• what was with all the hot and cold treatment last November and December?
• why did she, after telling me warmly we'd "see each other again real soon," turn on me and decide to treat me like an enemy?

Before all that, she treated me better than anyone's ever treated me...I don't know when, if ever, I'll ever feel like I can let anyone in that close again...last summer when we seemed to be such good friends was a great feeling but in the last year, I've shed more tears than I had my entire first 40 years...negative definitely outweighs the positives.

Really feels like our friendship was all a game to her all along at this point.